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Into the night I venture fearlessly Knowing something stirring inside will prevail Into the dark I wander fearlessly Dreaming of the day I can not fail Like thousands before me have done I slip away from my being and solemnly observe As I shed a tear at the loss of who I once was Urgently absorbing the knowledge I now deserve The moon and sun are mine for the taking This night is mine and mine alone The universe in the palm of my hands Finally, something I can call my own

Go ahead, wash away the last of my fleeting hopes Ignore the echoing midnight call Go on pretending that everything's fine And that I never mattered at all Shatter my last hope, just toss it aside Watch as the jagged pieces fly Take it all, destroy it at your pleasure Laugh as a solitary tear emerges from my eye Go ahead, take me and break me It doesn't even matter anymore Watch as I break and light up the sky Isn't that all I am good for? Pull me under, break the binding stare Act as though there's nothing to say Take it all, without a sound Go ahead, just walk away...

     Inches between us          Makes us worlds away One moment of silence                    Stifles all I want to say                                    One single promise broken                                      Can bring down the sun           Insinuations of something more        Are so much easier said than done

It's a painful relief To see my suspicions were wrong What a disappointing resolution To see it's been the same all along Let's just pretend it's etched in stone So that there are no more questions on my mind Wh don't we act like it's only what it seems? Why don't we just pretend to be blind? Let's just go back to being strangers We've never spoken, we've never met Let's just convince ourselves there's nothing So that there is nothing for us to regret Walk away, don't look back this time Once and for all, just leave it all behind Wht don't we act like it's only what it seems? Why don't we just pretend to be blind?

Maybe I'm a little fragile And transparent to those who have seen me broken Maybe I'm a little scared Of the words I almost left unspoken Maybe I just dream too much Getting caught up in what I wish could be Maybe this is beyond my control Or maybe this is all up to me Maybe I should walk away now Wait until the sky is a little lighter Maybe it's the right thing to do But why do I just want to hold on tighter? Maybe this is just a dream I could've just imagined everything Maybe I'll just wake up soon Who knows what tomorrow might have to bring? 5*16*03

Choking on emotions Breaking from your words They're splintering my soul Building up this tumor Of love and hate, bitterness and hope Tainting my heart and taking over So apathetic- So indifferent and cold you are But blindly I'm only drawn to you more As you continue to struggle to pull away Your distance only makes my emotions Those choking emotions Throb stronger through my veins Pervade my entire being And I force some elegance Dripping into my raw unattractive words Because this sting won't escape Tears just will not come My heart will not bleed It's all trapped inside I can't even look at you right now But still I

Haven't you been here before? Or don't you remember? I fear your empathy is running dry You're a slow fading ember You've abandoned all your prerequisites At a small returning glance But maybe it will all be worthwhile If I'm willing to take that chance Have you erased the past To escape the memory, the pain? But could that ever truly fade If reminders are plain to see? So you've finally found What you've been searching for Is it all you thought it would be? Or do you still want more? Look what you've become What you've been turned into It's what time has done That you can never undo.

I thought it was just a passing phase Just a moment that took me by suprise I thought it would be temporary Look at me now I only took a little An occasional fix to keep me going Until I keep on taking and taking And I can't get enough Then I overdose The pain is Blinding me Choking me Shattering me So maybe I should end this habit If it tears me up inside Walk away...slowly... Until my willpower is broken by withdrawal Trembling, vulnerable, terrified, I'm so lost without you I need just a tiny bit, Just comfort me... More and more... And it starts all over again I never knew I'd care Let alone become addicted No M

No longer inside this experience, Just a nervous spectator I have become, Watching The fireflies from the outside. It's tragic, this vulnerable, misguided girl Sweet at seventeen with so much to learn Look what she's letting him do to her Awkwardly she plunges into the unknown As she lets him experience The taste of her skin Watch her hands tremble As she finally pushes him away Making one last Desperate attempt To reclaim her innocence. Look how preoccupied, Angry she's become Aggressive fear, hiding behind lies Blaming one another, Shielding those underlying fears of their own emotions Look at how much regret is suff

Another minute has passed, Just as slowly as the last. And in this moment my heart is pounding Dread is rising in my chest Choking on my silent screams As my dreams are forcefully laid to rest. Time is showing No sign of slowing. My worst fears are breaking in Inches away from becoming real I pray for it all to come to an end To allow just a moment for my soul to heal This nightmare, this dream, It's all over when I scream. But the damage is done There's no will to scream Falling, falling... Nothing left to dream. Yet another minute has passed, Still the same as the last...